Rainy days

Beginning of May is known for being a raining month in Kiev. Lucky me went to work with no umbrella or hoody and I got socked wet under the poring May rain...

I walked out of my office building and realized I am screwed. Heavy rain is not a type of weather you want to walk home in, considering my work is 15 minutes away from it. Here I was, walking in my short dress, open shoes with no umbrella or chance to get a cab. I was trying to concentrate on something positive, but it only worked until I stepped in a huge puddle and my shoes were filled with cold water. I literally started laughing. It was more like a desperate laugh, one you get when you are pissed to the point where you can't cry, you just laugh. "Seriously, - I thought, - Are you guys on crack there or something?" I was asking that question whoever is up there in the sky, Jesus, Buddha, universe....Whatever. Anything else you want me to go through today?... I was swearing in my mind and thought about how sucky my life is getting, how lonely, cold and miserable I am on this street, walking home in the rain, with no chance to change anything...Suddenly my thoughts changed after I turned around the corner and saw people with no umbrellas: some running to the closest bus stop, some walking slowly and accepting the inevitable, some standing under the roofs of the stores waiting for the rain to stop. This made me realize, I am not alone in this situation, I am not the only one who got socked wet and is forced to deal with this weather. I also realized, this is like our problems. When we are facing them, we think we are the only person who is dealing with this in the whole world. We feel that is so unfair and hard, that no one can understand. That is not true. There are people around the corner who are in the same shit as we are. You might not see them, know them, but they are there. Some are fighting these problems, they still believe they can, some are simply accepting them and some are waiting for them to pass by, like those people who were standing under the roof, waiting  for the rain to pass. People love to feel exclusive and think that they are the only ones who have to go through this particular situation, but the truth is, we are not. We might handle things differently and for some people certain problems are more difficult than for others, but it doesnt change the fact that we are not alone. Problems also have a tendency to pass, just like the rain. We might still be wet after it, but sooner or later, we dry off and are back to normal "dry" life...

While I was walking home, I also remembered how last year I was waiting for a bus on the bus stop and it randomly started to rain. I had no umbrella and no place to hide. There was a girl standing next to me, and she offered me to hide under her's. We didn't know each other, but she was willing to help me, just because she could. There are people who are willing to help us when we least expect that. They might not be our family, our friends or even people we know. It can be a total stranger who is facing the same problem. It can be just a total stranger with the umbrella...